Simply♥Complicated

I’m left with no shoulder but everybody wants to lean on me. I guess I’m their soldier. well, who’s gonna be mine...

Excerpt from future writing

I tend to like get burst of scenes that could be part of a great story. Then I end up with all these bits and pieces of excerpts. So here’s one and ya’ll can tell me what you think. So to all that reads this I hope you guys enjoy it.

Her body leaned on the drivers side of his glossy black Altima coupe, a gift he received when he graduated from high school and made it into college with a scholarship for football. He was a year older than her but him going away first wasn’t a big deal because at the time they knew they wanted to be together. They already lived towns apart, so a little more distance would hurt, right? No wrong. She starred of into the dark hues of the night sky, wondering why she was standing out here with him, her eye quickly diverted to the moon. It was full tonight, and it gave off a luminous glow, she admired it as he stood there quietly next to her. He watched her as she watched the moon. As she admired the warm glow of the moon, he admired her radiant glow. The moment was just too perfect to speak, but the silence had to end sometime. It just had to, when they said goodbye, or telling her don’t argue, or asking why she didn’t love him. This golden moment wouldn’t last. So she enjoyed it and he restlessly put up with it. She felt him burning a hole in her face and she knew it was time speak. She turned to him. “So yeah, about seeing you this fall, it’s not going to happen I’m going away” She said to him looking him in his eyes, waiting for a reply, for his body language to tell her something, for any kind of notion that he cared.

But why did she want him to care, when she didn’t. He washed his hand over his face. “That’s great, I’m happy for you” He gave a weak smile, draped his arm around her brought her in for a tight hug and kissed her forehead. A slight feeling of disgust washed over her. Not because he kissed her or hugged but because she had a two year relationship on the other side of town. Disgusted with herself that she even allowed herself to agree to this late night rendezvous. “Thanks” She replied dryly, he blew out a breath of hair and went back to leaning on the car. “It’s going to be tough, a lot of money and I can’t look to my mom or anyone for money or care packages. I’m one hundred percent on my own” She said giving him some type of conversation because from the way he was reacting to her cold shoulder she started to feel a tad bit bad about. He was just here to be a friend and see how a friend was doing, she hoped. He nodded his head and opened the door to his car, he leaned inside and she just went back to the moon. After a couple of minutes he came back out and shut the door. “Here” he said holding a roll of money.

Her eyes widen in disbelief and shook her head. “No I’m not taking that” You could see the frustration in his face, his eyes sincere that he wanting to be her help, her super hero some how. “Please, sweetheart just take it. One thing I feel I’m doing right between us” Sweetheart She thought about the first day they met, she had became his sweetheart. She was off limits to any other guy. Usually she would protest but it was him so she didn’t mind. She snapped out of her trance when she felt and his hand in hers. “Please just take it, no arguing about it” He said firmly; she simply nodded her head and told him thank you. “Um I think it’s about time for me to go in, I have a busy day tomorrow” He rubbed the back of his neck with his right hand and nodded. “Goodnight, and thank you I really do appreciate this” He told her of course, nothing he wouldn’t do for her and turn to get in his car. As she walked away she heard him say something, she turned and said pardon me. “Do you love him?” She was quiet for a minute. “Yes, I do. I really do” She could read all over his face that he was hurt and crushed, but he asked and she had to be honest. “And I almost loved you” She walked over to him and gave him a kiss on the cheek, thanked him once again then walked away. He wanted to ask more questions but he decided he rather leave it at that, and create his own reasons as to why they failed. The truth hurts and he rather lie to himself.

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Have I ever mentioned that I reallyyyyy like Gaara?

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He’s so cuteeeee. Okay maybe evil but he was such a poor dear. Ahhhh, and I love his tattoo on his forehead! (Totally fangirling I know, but it doesn’t happen often anyway so bear with me.)
Y’know, I’ve actually considered getting something like that tattoo before. xD

This is actually just to warn you of the oncoming Gaara spam that picture I stumbled upon sparked. :P

I really like Gaara too. He’s hot, like who else you know durring a battle don’t have to move or break a sweat. That’s why I’m in denial of his death!

WTF Moment;

I know this guy that works in the store by my job. & i go to the store every morning and sometimes for lunch. I dont know him like that but we cool, he be flirting w| me but I dont pay it no mind…yeah he’s good looking, Dominican at that, but Im not checking for him. Why he goes “so ima give you a going away present that you will never forget”?!? Obviously he’s talking about sex & obviously im like o_O are you kidding me?!? For one I barely know you and you think some where in the small brain of yours im going to spread my legs for you, get the fuck out of here. EASY is NOT written on my forehead. So what the hell gave you the balls to offend me like that. I dont sleep with any nigga I think is cute. I dont know you, and you think im going to lay on my back for you, hell to the fuck no. Pssh miss me with all that shit. Im not the one, I maybe nice too nice at time but I am not easy. I would never degrade myself or disappoint my boyfriend like that. ha wow i could not fucking believe that.

Sorry for who reads this and there’s a lot of cursing. I don’t use such language in my regualr speech, I try to refrain from cursing. But my friends know if I start cursing im mad.

& homeboy really offended me with that. Like you only talk to me a couple of times and you think I would have sex with you. Stupid, Dumb or both. Alex, I’ll take both! Now he’s all “dont know if youll want it anymore tho now” you damn skippy….I iant want it in the first god damn place. Dudes man…i see why some chicks are converting….i would never convert fully but I do see why females do it.

I need to learn to turn my bitch on w|o someone crossing a line because Im way to nice